Thursday, 31 May, 2007

phenomenon called exams !!

since my exams are going on(just one more to go people ..yayyy ) decided to dedicate a blog towards this phenomenon called MUMBAI UNIVERSITY EXAMS (especially for enginnering students)
for starters , when you are in the first semester ( straight out of the enitre post 12th effect ) you have no clue as to what is in store for you . personally i d like to narrate my journey through my 8 semesters of engg. exams ( phew it was long ) .like i said straight out of 12th where u ' d ve attended the bestest of the coaching classes , gone through youre entire portion a couple of time (more than once atleast) , given a million tests to perfect the subject , understand what exactly you are doing (atleast for majority of subs) and before the final paper definitely have some amount of confidence in yourself .
enter engineering : it is the antithesis of all the above mentioned (oh trust me its worse than u can ever imagine) i had no idea what the subjects were .i am a telecom student i had no clue as to why on earth was i studing about the damned forces acting on various blodies or what on earth trusses are ( dats mechanics for you ) or how is cement manufactured or some such bullcrap . i had totally lost all hopes of ever managing to finish enginnering . and to top it all up we had the worst professors one can ever manage to have :| then after realizing / gettin a hang of (read realizing ) what subjects i am studying BAMMMM exam time . in just about 3 months its time for exams .not to forget the completion of journals , assignments and all other additional unnecessary nonsense . just a week (okay i dont clearly remember but i know it was very very very close to exam date) i realize i dont know a word . you know how it feels when ure absolutely clueless . after trying really hard to understand / mug the subjects i give my exams. the post exam days are spent praying hard that i clear my papers and wondering how i am goin to survive the 4 years .
finally the results are declared (this is after many days of romours about when the results are going to be declared) .i check my status .i read a PASS . cant thank my stars enough . dont even bother to look at the marks i ve got (u have no idea it was a sense of achivement for me !! i still dont know m of mechanics :D ) okay forced to check my marks (due to parents wanting to know my marks.. bingo all marks in 40s with exaclt 40 in 3 subjects :p )
enter sem 2 : a little wiser than before with less horrid subject . i had got a hang of what i was doing (read realized that i have to do the subs i had no choice ) start preparing during pl itself . quite determined to score well . oh yea i actually managed to do well .got a 68% (yayyy ) .
that was one semester worth remembering ( i got like an 81 in math :D which was like a complete achivement for me considering i had scraped through it the previous semester :p)
and slowly but not steadily passes each and ever semester with a minimum of one horrid subjct which i never understood. and then along with that came viva s (arrghhhh those were a pain )
by the way as far as viva s are concerned i doubt the external even knows what he is asking in most cases.
and the rest of the semesters were passed by keepin a few things in mind :
1 . all subjects are not meant to be understood
2. PL is the time to study
3. mugging helps you score well
4. its okay to have horrid viva s
5. its okay to not complete the papers
6. for answers you dont know you gotta make up stuff
7. paper solutions are really helpfull
8. never wonder why u scored less or more in a partcular subject when you expected the exact opposite to happen :p
9. never discuss answers after the papers :p

so yea with just one more paper to go :) i hope the paper goes of well . (talkin about one horrid paper / sem this time it was optical fiber )
for all those of you who understand what i am blabbering i am sure u ll agree exams are a phenomenon of its own .
cheers to all who managed to go though this torture and actually remain sane enough to manage reading this blog till the end :p

Sunday, 27 May, 2007

destiny's child ..

with just two more papers to go four years of engineering have come to an end (alas! ) . i will soon be an electronics and telecommunication engineer (sounds cool :D ) theres this one question that everyone seems to be asking me these days (everyone = relatives , friends i have nt met for ages , random acquaintances etc ) .that one question is "WHAT NEXT ? " at first i used to reply with a blatant "i ll be working for a while .. then lets see how things go " . but then today all of a sudden i found my self pondering over this question of "WHAT NEXT? " what am i going to be doing in a few years from now ? do i have a back up plan if things don't go they way they are supposed to? when do i see myself "doing well "? and the list just kept growing bigger but the answers remained just the same "i don't know".
i think its really important for us to plan out or at least have an idea of what exactly we want to be doing in the near future. i think that makes it easier to focus on our ultimate goal/ aim in life. instead of taking things as they come at least as far as important steps in life are concerned.
but then when i look back in life , i just see that none of what i am today has ever been planned . i was nt even supposed to be studying engineering . (surprising ha ?) yea and then at that point of time i decided to take things as they come .but today outta the blue i find myself thinking about what m i going to do next. but then we cant plan everything can we ? there is something called destiny which i totally beleive in . and dont get me wrong i am not trying to say leave you future to destiny . all i beleive in is no matter what we do there is something we are destined to do and thats what we all end up doing . so many times i ve found that everything i had planned for myself never happened.
the future seems so uncertain and it scares me at times. but then i guess thats how life is . full of surprises waiting for you . in anycase i see my self working hard to achive what i have i ve dreamt for myself . and no matter what life has in store for me the two things i will always have with me are HOPE & FAITH.

don't quit

most of us have this list of favourite poems ..this one is mine.. it makes me feel a lot better when i think life is in deep shit :)


When things go wrong as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out:
Don't give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tints of the clouds of doubt
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far.
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

when time flies..

Have been wanting to write something since a very long time. Just dint get the right kind of thing to blog about. I really don’t have anything specific in mind even as I am writing now.dunno where this is going to end up

Today was the last day of college. Four years of engineering have just flown away. I now realize the meaning of the phrase "time flies”. And yes indeed it has flown. Still remember walking down the dusty road to college trying to figure out what on earth was I doing in a place like this. Felt like cursing myself for having landed up in such a college which dint even have a well defined road. Also in the first year the college dint have any lift .I remember trudging up 7 floors to the drawing hall. And then to add to the surprise was the weirdest of subjects put together for freshers. And since the first year till the final year its been a long journey. We were a class with hardly 30 of us in the first year. It was very different then. New people, new subjects, new place and to top it all so called ‘teachers’. What they taught they alone knew. Yea that’s one thing that still hasn’t changed :D .

Semester after semester I would assure myself that its just 4 years after which we would all say a good bye to this college. And I think that day has come, when each of us have to say good bye to this college. But somehow even though I’ve been waiting for this day since a very long time I am going to be missing this place a lottt . This college has given me the best years of my life. I’ve met my best friends at this place, learnt really important lessons in my life. It has made me so much better as a person. (oh yea I was much worse than this :p ) .

The best gift this place has given me is friends. I have had the best times of my life with them. They have been so much more than just friends. I really don’t know how am I ever going to be able to cope with the fact that we are not going to be together anymore. Each of us will go our own way. No more sitting for lectures. No more laughing at silly Profs. No more teasing each other with silly stuff. No more name calling. No more hogging on each others dabbas. No more silly fights in class. No more complaining about assignments. None of this is ever going to happen. Even if it does I don’t think its going to be all of us together in this. We are going to lead our own separate lives. All of us will be chasing our own separate dreams.

Everything is going to be so different. All of us will move on. Don’t know if the equations of friendships will change (I hope it changes for the better). And even then when I look back at these years of my life all I will have is memories. All those night outs, eating crap from road (oh yea hogging on digestives), gossiping endlessly (it is so much fun :p) , calling each other with the crappiest of adjectives :D ,talking in code language, copying in those stupid tests , cursing most of things since it dint happen our way … all of it ..I am so going to miss each and everything :(

I think I’ll probably end up crying or something.



hello people..
so finally decided to start blogging here (bye bye msn spaces) ..for starters i ll put up an old post..
like the name suggests this is where i ll be thinking out .. ALOUD .. :D